Resiliency: A Life Lesson

When I was 17 years old, I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease that caused my body to attack itself. The symptoms were horrible and my organs swelled up with the threat of my spleen exploding if I exerted myself physically. Consequently, I had to endure the disease, or so I thought.

After four months of battling this disease and going to doctors appointments, specialists, and holistic practitioners, I was faced with hopelessness. There was no medication I could take and I wondered if I was always going to be sick and if this was going to be my life. I let myself fall into defeat.

At one of my doctor’s appointments, my doctor saw that I had given up. She felt it in the way I spoke, and she saw it in my eyes. She looked at me and said, “Natalie, if you think you are sick, you will stay sick.” Her words struck me, and she prescribed me on a prescription paper to read the book called “The Biology of Belief” by Bruce Lipton, so I bought it and I read it.

I learned how my thoughts can shape my physiology. I learned how I didn’t need to be sick anymore if I decided not to. It gave me hope, and it gave me strength. It was powerful. At that point, my doctor told me I could finally start to do light physical activity, so I enrolled in a yoga class at my university. There I met an amazing teacher who changed my life, taught me how to connect with myself, and how to be strong in all ways.

My entire world view shifted. My values. My beliefs – all redirected to vitality, community, and love. I was stripped of my achievements, all that I had defined myself as, and I was boiled down to just me. My heart and my soul and that’s the way I started to see people. I saw their beauty, their hearts, and their souls.

I had graduated top of my class from high school, and I was ready to pursue success but life had a different lesson for me. This disease happened to me because I was at dis-ease. There was turmoil in my life that I didn’t know how to deal with, and it manifested into a disease. I was depressed, I was upset. Why me? As soon as I discovered that this dis-ease was an opportunity, I realized that this was a moment in time that I could cease and grow from. Today, I am proud that I overcame this mental, physical, emotional, and spiritual challenge. It revealed to me what is important in life – love, connection, and health.

If you are going through anything where you don’t think there’s an end, think about how you are the creator of your life. You get to create your thoughts, your beliefs, your world views. Use challenge as a way to grow and launch yourself. Stay resilient. Stay calm. Everything will be okay. We have the choice.

Let Yourself Be Seen

It’s frightening – the moments when we think we are on track and we got everything in control but then someone says something and it shakes us. All the sudden, we can think our life has gone to shit and we are horrible. In that moment, we can sulk in our misery or we could say, “Hey that’s bullshit. Let’s not hate on ourselves and compare ourselves to other people.” To me that’s the better option, along with focusing on working hard. Why would we even give someone that power to shake us?

This makes me think about self-acceptance and just letting yourself just be and accepting yourself for where you are at. We judge ourselves too much – it’s tiring – and we don’t really need it. There’s already a lot to stress out about, so why focus on more things you don’t have but think you need.

The phrase “You’re exactly where you need to be” pops in my head and makes me wonder – ok, well if I am exactly where I need to be, why am I not happy? Why am I still looking for more? Then I have to shake myself and remember that I need to seriously be okay with where I am and who I am in the moment. That I need to do hard work if I want to achieve a certain something, make a certain amount, or whatever I aspire for in my life. It’s truly about being realistic.

If I want to achieve a dream in life, I need to be realistic. We need to be realistic. If we are going to live in a world where more and more we see the words “Follow your dream” or “Pursue your Passion” everywhere, then we better be grounded. While it’s necessary to dream and have a vision to make a difference, it’s also critical for us to be grounded to execute it and make it happen.

Why is this important? Cause if we aren’t honest with ourselves, we won’t pursue the dream. We won’t think it’s possible. We won’t think it’s in reach. We have to take the small steps, and we have to watch it grow slowly. We can’t jump from A to Z. We have to go through the journey, and a major part of that journey is being realistic and being a dreamer. It’s accepting yourself and working hard. Be real with yourself. Let’s all be real with ourselves. Hard work and dedication is what will take us far, and it’s our dreams that lead us.

We must not allow fear to prevent us. We can shape this world. It just takes discipline, persistence, motivation, tolerance, action, grit, love, vulnerability, and passion – to name a few. Let’s shape ourselves to share this world together. I believe in me. I believe in you. If you don’t know how to work hard, research how, ask for help (this is a big one!), and push yourself to do new things. Challenge will help you grow. Willingly let yourself be uncomfortable by facing challenges.

Change is the only thing constant in life, so be creative about how to face this in your life. Use it as a tool to launch you into your dream and making a difference. I need it. You need it. We need it. The world needs it. Let yourself be seen.

I am sensitive || I am tough

I am sensitive.

I am a sensitive person. I feel myself and the people around me. I am observant but strategic. I work to allow myself to be myself, and I seek to learn how to navigate about my social terrain to connect with others. I seek to learn how to not take things personally. I desire to be present. I actively am in my body, at the same time, I am aware of others. I am sensitive so I can take care of myself, so that I am staying true to myself. I am sensitive so that I can exist and collaborate with others.

I am tough. 

I am a tough person. I am learning how to take time to know what I want, what I am okay with and what I am not okay with. I speak up when I remember that it’s important to speak up or when my throat starts burning, telling me to speak. If I resist, I am lying to myself and others. I always hope when I do speak, it comes off as mindful of myself and others. If it lands off, I communicate my best to guide it back to where I meant to land. If someone else is not receptive, I am okay. I understand. Communication is an art. A dance between two people. I am tough so that I understand to not take things personally, it isn’t always about me. And if I say something “wrong,” it’s okay – we are all learning. I am tough so that I can participate in life, meaning embracing live’s challenges, taking risks, facing fears, and withstanding adverse conditions all with grace.

Creativity can come when you are sensitive and tough.

When you are aware and when you are intentional. When you are tapped into yourself and others. When you face your fears and take on challenges.

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Creativity

Creativity is pure expression of who we are. When we are able to tap into our authentic selves, we can be present, allowing pure creativity to flow. It takes a while to figure out how to tap into our “authentic selves,” and it takes practice, vulnerability, empathy, open-mindedness, honesty, experiences, and challenges. Through my posts, I hope that what I share about how I have been able to tap into myself, allow creativity to flow, and share ways to help you to do the same. ❤